Monday, September 10, 2012

WHY??? Coward??

OK, this is emotions talking.

Look around you. This is the world we are living in nowadays. Crimes widespread. Not only in daylight. But even in the presence of other citizens/onlookers. Criminals becoming more daring.


Because nobody is brave enough to help or take actions against them.


Because they prefer not to be the next target. They prefer to wait for the authorities to arrive. Which would give enough times for the criminals to fled.


What if this sort of things happen to your family or someone who is close to you? Would you get mad? Would you blame the onlookers for not helping?

I BET YOU DO. Of course, who wouldn't right?

But then, why wouldn't you do the same thing for them? Why wouldn't you help when you see this kind of things happening right in front of your eyes. WHY???

At least try. PLEASE. Don't just stand there. Especially when there are more on your side. THIS IS NOT A FREE SHOW. That should at least scare the criminals away. Remember - THERE IS ALWAYS STRENGTH IN NUMBER.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

It's over now...

Yeah...I think it is now officially over. At least I will try to end it. For the best.

Not to worry. If he is meant to be mine, eventually he will be. But if he is not, then he will never be.

Cheer up!! I'm all OK with it. ^__^

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Elle Are Tee

"Yang kat dalam tu boleh rapat sikit?"

"Ada ruang lagi tak?"

"Kawasan kosong tu reserve untuk siapa?"

Haa.....kan best kalau boleh sound macam tu. Tapi..... Apakan daya. Rakyat Malaysia nih sensitif melampau. Nanti dikatanya kita takde adab. Diorang tu apa pulak? 


Haish....Please la....Sumer orang pun nak pergi kerja. Bukan korang jek. Dah nampak orang bersesak kat pintu. Yang belah dalam tu boleh buat dunno jek. Ada masalah klaustrophobia? Janji sendiri selesa. Macam tu? Tak ke SELFISH tuh?? Side yang dah macam 'tin sardin' tu ko boleh pandang jek? Haish....setiap kali pun nak kena orang lain tegur dulu. Tak boleh ambil inisiatif sendiri ke? Dah besar kan? Boleh fikir sendiri kan?

Itu lah dia. Buat orang lain pulak serba salah. Nak tegur salah. Tak tegur kang, kesian yang side 'tin sardin' tu pulak. Manja. Sensitif. Tak boleh ditegur sikit. Tapi tak boleh nak fikir sendiri. Apa la nak jadi kome2 nih. 



Monday, August 27, 2012

Yang Kurasa Kini....

~~~ Cinta dan Benci ~~~



Yeah!!! Blog title dan layout telah sekali lagi bertukar... ^_^

Post Raya~~~


Adoi, penatnya. Malas betul. Rasa macam nak balik tido jek. Owh, btw, arini first day keje lepas cuti raya seminggu. Memang xde mood langsung la...

Tambahan pulak ada penutupan jalan sempena sambutan Hari Kemerdekaan ke-55. Haiya...Sepanjang minggu ni pulak tuh. Sambutan yang akan dibuat pada hari Jumaat ni di Dataran Merdeka. Betul2 depan opis. Pftttt.....

Entrance kena block, parking lot dah diletak khemah....memang sia2 la kalau bawak kereta pun....Xde tempat nak parking. Terpaksa la naik public transport (LRT) sepanjang minggu nih.

Nak buat macamana...pasrah aje la. Bukan boleh buat apa-apa pun. Sekali-sekala naik public transport kan? Asek drive jek. Ni lah masanya nak naik public transport. *tangan ke bahu*

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Rindu kampung

Balik kampung. Sekali setahun je kot. Itu pun time raya.


Esok dah nak gerak balik Kuala Terengganu. Jumaat pit stop Kuantan. Sabtu pagi gerak balik KL.


Raya tahun depan la pulak baru dapat balik kampung. Kalau kebetulan ada kelapangan, dapat la singgah kampung dalam tempoh 6 bulan setengah kursus nanti. Insyaallah.

Apa yang best duduk kat kampung? Tak payah fikir pasal kerja, dapat release tension sikit jalan2 kat pantai, boleh bangun lambat (Eh? hehehe), boleh mandi air terjun, makan satar, lepak makan buah kat dusun, etc.

Apa yang xde? complex yg ada wayang, bowling, restoran best2 & kawan2 sosial. Hahaha...x aci. Perbandingan tak setara. Hikhik...

X kesah la. Point nya....seronok jugak sekali-sekala kalau dapat bercuti balik kampung. Bukan nak tunggu time raya jek. Time raya ramai yang balik kampung. Jalan sesak. X best. X enjoy.


Bila la boleh balik, kumpul ramai2 macam ni lagi? #_#

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Raya Day 3

Currently in Besut. We only went to one house today, for an engagement ceremony. Then, we went straight back home. It is scorching hot here. Like extremely hot. I can even feel the heat inside the house. Changed my clothes twice.

Since there was nothing else better to do, I called out to my cousins to hang out at the 'library'. A special place above the garage, built to store all of my aunt's books.

It is cooler up there. With fresh air and great scenery. I did took some pictures. Unfortunately, I couldn't put it here as I am currently using my phone and am not able to upload it directly. Will do it some times later.


Feeling bored during the night, my cousin Alya & I went out to buy some drinks and junk foods. Hahaha.... We also manage to get vanilla ice-cream and carbonated drinks to make floats. At least, that was fun. Having floats while watching movies on TV.

Hurmmm....what else can I do now? SLEEP. Bye.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Breaking In Attempt

Ok. This is considered old news.

Last friday (17/08/12), there was an attempt to break into our house at about 4.38am by 2 burglars.

They didn't realize that their action were caught on CCTV. One of the burglar managed to open the grill of our sliding door. Luckily enough, the alarm went on when they try to slide open the glass door that they decided to flee.

This had put us on cautious on the night after that I didn't even get enough rest/sleep just by thinking of it. I kept waking up in the middle of the night just to monitor the CCTV. It really terrifies me thinking of the possibilities that might happened should they manage to enter our house that night.

I surely hope this incident would never happen again. ;'(

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Eidulfitri 2012

Di hari raya~~~
Terkenang daku kepada si dia~~~
Kini berada nun jauh di bandar~~~
Dengan keluarga tercinta.

Mohon maaf atas post gedik ini. Xde idea. Guna phone. Buat seringkas mungkin.

Roses & Violets

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I like a boy,
And that boy is you.


Friday, August 17, 2012

I Heart You

I had once read that the more frequent you express your love....the faster it will fade. That is what I am counting on right now.

It is hard to suppress this feeling. To get over it. To pretend that it don't exist. To not miss him. To not think of him. To look at him differently. IT IS HARD.

I can't confess because I know it will ruin our friendship. We will never be the same afterwards. And I definitely doesn't want that to happen. FULL STOP.

I had tried to ignore it once. But, as time passed, it grows stronger. And I can't help it. At times like this, I do wish that I am prettier. Better in every aspect. Someone who can easily attract him. But then, it wouldn't be me. I don't wanna have to pretend. I just wanna be myself. I don't wanna have to change just for the sake of that.

Dear Boy,
It is not love at first sight,
Definitely not the second one.

As time passed, it just happened,
When I slowly get to know you better.

I never ask for this to happen,
As I know how it will eventually turn.

All I want is your understanding,
If you happened to already figure out about this.

Right now, 

All I ever wanted is to throw this feeling away, 
Because I realize, we are better off as friends. 

But then, 

I can't simply direct my heart to do so because this is beyond my control,
All that I can do is pray, for this feeling to fade away.

Dear God, if he is not the one, please help me to get over this. Amin~~~ *dengan harapan akan berjaya*

Thursday, August 16, 2012


Wow! It has been 2 months since the last time I put up an entry. The longest interval so far. I guess~~~ (~__~)"

Here goes~

Coming into the office this morning, I started my day with flipping through the newspapers. Just to find some catchy headlines that would actually capture my attention. Then, I came up upon this article from Berita Harian newspaper:

Going through the article, I can't help but to agree to the writer's points on why some people find it hard to converse in English as I myself feel the same way. Especially on the first point - Fear of making mistakes.

Around July last year, I went to this 3-days-course on Effective Writing Skills. (referring to this) At about the same time, I also went to a  3-days-course on Effective Speaking Skills. I was actually trying to improve my communication skills in English. During Effective Writing Skills course, we were emphasized on using the correct words and grammar. But during Effective Speaking Skills, we were then taught that in order to improve our communications in English, we can actually ignore the grammatical errors that we made along the way. How can that be? *confuse*

Being the person that I am, I find it really hard to converse without using the correct grammar as I grew up learning the importance of grammars and have been trying my best to avoid grammatical errors, be it in writing or communicating. So, I ended up preferring to keep my mouth shut rather than conversing with bad grammars.

Back to the article - going through the ways to counter the factors, I was actually drawn to the fifth point on keeping a journal or diary. Come to think of it, I already have that medium - My Blog ( I know I can express better in writings rather than conversing. Now, why didn't I fully utilize it.*a knock on my head*

That is how I got the idea to put up this new entry. So, from now onwards, I'll try my best to post new entries whenever I can as a learning process. I'll be going for an almost-7-months course starting this October --> Diploma Pentadbiran Awam. Hopefully, I can steal some times to write some entries along the way. Regarding my journey.*crossing fingers*

I guess, that is all for now.

XOXO ~~~ <3

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Give Your Heart a Break

The day I, first met you, you told me you'd never fall in love. 
But now that I get you, I know fear is what it really was. 
Now here we are, so close, yet so far. Haven't I passed the test? 
When will you realize, baby I'm not like the rest? 

Don't wanna break your heart, wanna give your heart a break. 
I know you're scared it's wrong, like you might make a mistake. 
There's just one life to live and there's no time to wait (to waste). 
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break, let me give your heart a break, your heart a break, oh yeah yeah. 

On Sunday you went home, alone, there were tears in your eyes. 
I called your cell phone, my love, but you did not reply 
The world is ours, if we want it, we can take it if you just take my hand. 
There's no turning back now, baby try to understand. 

Don't wanna break your heart, wanna give your heart a break 
I know you're scared it's wrong, like you might make a mistake 
There's just one life to live and there's no time to wait (to waste) 
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break, let me give your heart a break, your heart a break 

There just so much you can take. Give your heart a break, let me give your heart a break, your heart a break, oh yeah yeah. 

When your lips are on my lips, and our hearts beat as one 
But you slip out of my finger tips every time you run 

Don't wanna break your heart, wanna give your heart a break 
I know you're scared it's wrong, like you might make a mistake 
There's just one life to live and there's no time to wait (to waste) 
So let me give your heart a break 

Cause you've been hurt before, I can see it in your eyes 
You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise 
Don't wanna break your heart, baby I can ease the ache (the ache) 

So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break, let me give your heart a break, your heart a break 
There just so much you can take. Give your heart a break, let me give your heart a break, your heart a break, oh yeah yeah. 

The day I first met you, you told me you'd never fall in love

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Cinta Bersatu

By Liyana Jasmay....

Di matamu ku berharga
Kau perlakukan aku
Lebih dari mencintai dirimu

Di dekatmu ku merasa
Bahagianya aku
Dapat ruang cintamu

Hanya kamu saja
Yang mampu begitu
Mengerti aku

Kau sempurna bagiku
Tak kurang sesuatu
Kau terima apa adaku

Ku sempurna bagimu
Tak kurang sesuatu
Cinta bersatu

Cara mencintaiku
Yang membuat diriku jatuh...cinta padamu

Lagu & Lirik : Tilu

Friday, June 1, 2012


Semalam amek cuti sehari. Teman adik pergi shopping. Walaupun kurang sihat, sebab dah janji, kenalah tepati betul? *selesema je pun* - teruk jugak la bila asek bersin every few minutes.

Apa kaitan dengan tajuk? Yang atas tu xde kaitan. Yang bawah ni ada.

Cemane boleh pergi shopping sedangkan baki duit gaji bulan ni pun dah x cukup nak bertahan sampai next gaji? Gaji yang baru dapat minggu lepas dah habis bayar hutang. Huhu...

The answer? ---> Because I am lucky. Lucky that my father's salary is big enough to spoil us with luxury living. Not that luxury though that we can jet off to anywhere we want on anytime we pleasure. But enough to let us spend on what we want. Considered that it is worth spending. *not always* - Wasting is not encouraged.

Memandangkan 'elaun' tersebut masih ada baki sebab semalam hanya spend untuk lunch and 2 blouses, terdetik rasa nak share dengan kawan2 sebagai tanda syukur. Belanja tengok wayang pun OK wut? Can't wait. >__<

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Senyum...(tak perlu kata apa-apa)

( ^__________^)

2 perkara yang membuatkan saya tersenyum lebar:

1. Memikirkan si dia.

2. Menyelesaikan perselisihan faham dan berbaik semula dengan rakan.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

I did it!


Berjaya request lagu. Hahahaha....

Dah puas ulang kat youtube. Next time boleh dengar live. Yeay~~~


Tuesday, May 1, 2012


Ok. Xde idea untuk tajuk entry.

Sedang bermalas2an di rumah. Actually tengah baring atas katil, dalam bilik yang ber-air cond. Aktiviti kegemaran di kala cuti. Apa salahnya kan? Waktu kerja kita buat kerja all out. Waktu cuti pun kena la berehat all out kan? ^_^

Sebenarnya tengah bosan. Puas dah surf facebook. WA pun tgh hibernate. Masing2 tgh berehat. Apa nak buat nih???

Turn on safari.

Check blog kejap. Dah bersarang rupanya. ~_~"

Dah lama rupanya tak mengarang. *sigh*

Kenapa tak mengarang? Takde idea?

Bukanlah. Idea ada. Cuma belum ready nak share.

Mengade2 kan? Kalau mcm tu baik x payah buat blog. *bisikan hati-sukati la*

Walaupun tau xde orang baca blog ni selain diri sendiri, tetap takut nak ambil risiko. Why? Sebab topik tu ada kaitan dengan C.I.N.T.A. Manalah tau tiba2 ada kawan baca nanti. Hehe...bahaya.

But then, bila difikirkan balik, apa salahnya kan? That is my memory for the moment. Kalau x jot down, memory tu akan hilang mcm tu je nanti. Nothing to reminisce. So now, I've decided to just go with it.

I think I like someone. I don't know how deep the feeling is right now. Can't really tell. All I can say is I am happy to have him as a companion. I would be more than happy to have him as a special, almost daily basic companion. >__<

Does he know? I am not sure. Maybe. I got this feeling that he already notice it through the way I treat him. Yeah, I do care about him. But nothing is for sure. I don't even remember when it all started. Definitely not at first sight. Maybe because we use to hang out together with our circle of friends?

Why can't I just tell him directly? Well, mainly because of the fact that HE IS in that circle of friends that always hang out together whenever we can and I don't wanna ruin our friendship if something went wrong. I hate that awkward feeling to know that he already knows that I like him but he doesn't feel the same way. Ashamed? Maybe, for a short while.

So, that is the reason why I stop writing. Recently got a new topic-Bersih 3.0, but I have decided not to go with it. Enough is enough.

That is all for now. Don't know when will my next entry be.

About the thing I just share, wish me luck. ^_^

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Wuuuu.... I am confuse.

I'm lost. Literally. ~_~

Am I??? No...

Really??? I am not 100% sure...

But I hope I am. No. I hope it is true.




I don't like this. Wuuuu... ;-(

Rindu Padanya by Camelia

Lagu karok terkini. Senang nak bawak. Hehe... >__<

Sejak terpandang wajahmu
Hatiku bertanya selalu
Siapa dia memikat pandanganku

Seringkali dia berlalu
Di hadapan dan menyapaku
Sehingga hatiku seringkali merindu
Tak dapat ku melupakan dirinya
Terbayang wajahnya di mataku

Ingin ku tanya namanya
Tapi hatiku rasa malu
Tak terucapkan walau sepatah kata
Mungkinkah diriku telah dilamun cinta
Oh... hatiku resah selalu

Haruskah aku menyatakan
Perasaanku kepadanya
Mungkinkah dia kini telah berpunya
Getar hati makin terasa
Bila terdengar suara dan bertentang mata
Ku bagaikan bebunga kehujanan
Berkembang mekar
Di setiap ketika

Tidur malamku tak lena
Asyik teringat padanya
Bilakah mentari memancarkan cahaya
Hanyalah dirinya bermain diingatan
Oh...tuhan ku rindu padanya

Monday, April 9, 2012

I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold

And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake

And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Moral of the story

Do not give up

Totally mis~~~


I miss my friend.

When the miscommunication occurs, it never crossed my mind that maybe he didn't actually get the whole story.

When there is a misunderstanding and he was mad, why didn't I think of giving him the chance to cool off first instead of bringing it up there and then. All that I ever think of was me being heartbroken. Maybe devastated.

My fault. Always burdening my head to think of such things. Always being hard to let go. Always trying to make things right when there is actually nothing to correct.

All I ever wanted now is to turn back times. No matter who is right, who is wrong. Trying to put this past us.

Please God, grant me this wish. Amin~~~

Miscomm bukan mass comm

Arakian... Ada dua makhluk tuhan ni. Mereka berkawan. Kawan biasa je yek. Baik di alam siber. In real world, dua-dua pemalu. Hehehe...

Nak dijadikan cerita, satu hari mereka berselisih faham. Or should I say ada miscommunication between them. Adoyainya pun. Ni la salah satu masalah dalam berkomunikasi. Lagi2 yang bukan face-to-face. *sigh*

Yang sorang ni, oleh kerana terasa telah kena marah tanpa mengetahui sebabnya, telah sharing perasaan sentap itu bersama teman2 rapat. Demi meluahkan dah mengurangkan rasa luka di hati. Feeling down sangat2 occay.

Tetapi, tanpa disedari dia telah membuatkan kawannya tadi bertambah marah. Lagi la tak tau kenapa. Huhu....(T_T)

Selidik punya selidik. Rupa2nya cerita perkongsian perasaan sentap itu telah diketahui oleh kawan tadi. Tapi, apa cerita sebenar yang dia dengar tidaklah diketahui. Kowt la tersalah penyampaian. Masalah dalam komunikasi lagi. Haish...susah betul la komunikasi nih. Suka buat orang bergaduh. *sigh*

So, apa kesudahannya antara dua insan tadi? Masih tak diketahui. Kemungkinannya? Malas nak speculate. Kowt masin mulut nih nanti. Huhu... (Y_Y)

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Officially 26 Today

Detik 12.00 tgh malam, permulaan hari 11 Mac 2012 di sambut dengan kejutan oleh adik2 dan sepupu sepapat.

Lepas semua tetamu beransur pulang dari majlis tahlil & kenduri kesyukuran anniversary makcik & wedding kazen, beday girl a.k.a me a.k.a saya, telah dikejutkan dengan sumbangan lagu 'Happy Birthday'.

They totally caught me off guard. Hehe... Penat sangat sampai terlupa. Malu I~~~ hehe...

Sekarang dah penat sangat2. Wish kat WA, FB dan SMS semua dah reply. Masa untuk tido. ^_^


Monday, February 20, 2012


Perghh.... Dah lebey 10 hari x post entry. Takpela...dah azan Isya'. Lenkali je la... =P

Thursday, February 9, 2012

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Wut time is it?

My closet is full!! About to overload if I may say. (~_~)'' With use and unused clothes. I can still wear most of it. But for some, I just don't. I stopped wearing them some times ago.


For some, just plain uncomfortable. And for the rest....maybe I just have too much that I don't need it. Besides the fact that I keep repeating on wearing the same clothes at home. (^_^)

So, wut time is it again?

It's time for a bigger closet space or should I say, SPRING CLEANING!!!! (~_~)''

I'd rather go with the second option. Get rid of some, and add some more later. (>__<)

Hence it is called 'spring' cleaning, maybe I should do it later. During spring time. (^_^)

I have to work tomorrow and the day after, we will go for a family holiday to Hatyai.

Spring cleaning will have to wait. (>__<)


Anxiety... the displeasing feeling of fear and concern.

I keep thinking...of the future...of what lays ahead for me.

Will I be that? Will I do that? Will I like who I am destined to be? What would the future me be like?

Hard to say.

Of course we wouldn't know anything about the future for certain. We can only predict. We can only plan.

Sunday, January 29, 2012


Everybody needs to change. Make changes. In order to grow. To move on.

So do I.

Several days ago, I was given this chance to choose between two options. To remain in my comfort zone, or to take up this challenge to further improve my knowledge and skills.

But, it is not certain yet.

When it is certain, I only have until the end of this week to make my decision.

A part of me wanna take up this challenge. To make changes for a better organisation. For a better working environment. For a better future.

However, another part is having doubt. Will I be given the chance to make changes? To make a difference?

In the end, my final decision is....( will be revealed after the situation is certain ).

--- to be continued ---

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Lazy Weekend

Adess... Berat kepalaku...

Pening kepala tido lebih 8 jam. Mana taknya. Semalam tido awal. Penat tawaf Jalan TAR masa lunch break kowt. Hehe...


Arini xde plan pape. Ingat nak kuar jalan2. Tapi tak tau nak ke mana, nak buat apa.

Shopping? Hehe...duit dah abes. Semalam baru settle bil kad kredit. ^__^

Ingat nak pergi KLCC. Beli popcorn Garrett yg femes tu. Nak la jugak cuba. Asek dengar citer orang jek. Nasib baik papa ada. week dia ada keje @KLCC. Pow papa aje la. Hehe... Dengar2nya popcorn tu agak mahal. Thanx Papa. Hikhik... =P

OK. Wut else can I do today. Nak pergi cobbler, kasut tinggal dalam kete. Kete pulak abang dah pinjam pergi keje. Tergendala lagi. :'(

Nak jahit manik. Tapi, xde baju baru yang boleh dijahit manik. Ni kalau buat announcement nih, confirm mama bagi baju utk dijahit manik. LOL. Kalau baju mama kena extra work. Kalau baju sendiri, buat simple2 jek.

Hurmm...sambung baca novel je la. OK, ciow.

Friday, January 27, 2012


Fuhhh....exhausted. It is Friday already. We, government servants got 2½ hours lunch break. Shopping time for me. =D

Just reached my office. Had kicked my shoes off. (>__<) My feet is killing me from the long walk around Jalan TAR. Huhu...

Managed to buy 2 things today. A turquoise kebaya material and iron-on stones to accessorize my baju kurung. =P

Another 15 minutes to go. Better use it to rest my feet. (^__^)


If only you can see my face right now.

The expression would show that I am having a deep thought.

Of what? I don't know. It's a blurry deep thought. Too tangled up. Can't find the beginning, don't know where it ends. ( =_= )"??

Did I do wrong? What did I do wrong? How to be sure that I never did wrong? How to clear things up? How to clarify a problem/ something that don't even exist? At least I am not sure if it even exist. ( =_= )"??

Is it best to just stay away from it? Well, that won't solve the problem right? It can only help to keep my mind away from it for a while.

Should I just ask if the problem even exist? What would the reaction be? What will happen next?

AWKWARD?? - something I would prefer to avoid

What should I do? ( +_+ )??

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Treat your girl right.

"Treat your girl right, bro. Plain and simple.

I know it can be hard to please her sometimes, but it’s worth it in the end. Remember that she’s your happiness, your world. She should be the first person you talk to in the morning, and the last person you whisper “Good night” to. Unlike some of your bros, she’s going to be there for you when you’re the happiest, but more importantly, when you’re at your lowest. She’ll cook for you and care for you, so treat her like a queen. 

Girls are delicate creatures. Think before you say. Think before you act. They take every little mistake you make and multiply it by a thousand. So try not to mess up, aight? When you’re fighting, sometimes it’s better to put your relationship before your own pride. You’re not helping yourself by making her upset, bro. And never, ever, under any condition, let her go to sleep crying. She’ll resent you for it for the rest of your days. 

Don’t forget to make her feel special everyday. Open doors, go shopping with her. Hell, make dinner for her! The more you show her you love her, the more she’ll give you in return. Remember that an “I love you” via text is never as special as one in person. And show her off to your bros, don’t be ashamed of her. She’s never been ashamed of your dorky ass. Look, she doesn’t really need much in a relationship; she just wants to feel like she matters to you. That’s not asking for much, bro.

But if you haven’t learned a thing from reading this, remember this. Love her unconditionally, loyally, and keep her close. Love her with everything you’ve got: emotionally, mentally, and physically. Because I swear, if you won’t treat your girl right, someone else definitely will."

Well, obviously I didn't write all this by myself. I just copy and paste it here to share. =P

My Obsession...^__^

Matamu... bibirmu...
Pipimu dan juga senyummu...
Membuat aku... lebur
Hanyut di dalam ghairah
Kerna mu...
Tubuhmu... harummu... hatimu
Oh semua aku mahu
 Inginku gigit-gigit cuping telinga kecilmu
Luahkan perasaanku dan membisikkan aku cinta kamu
Hadiahkan asmara di setiap pagi harimu
Dengan harapan agar kau tahu...
Semoga kau tahu... 
Ku gilakanmu
Auramu... Pujuk rayu hatiku...
Sering bergoncang... jiwa ini
Siang malamku... gundah
Tiada melihat wajahmu...
Ku rindu...

Thursday, January 19, 2012


Tepuk dada... tanya selera...


YES or NO?


Apa yang susah sangat ek? Kenapa manusia nih susah sangat nak bagi jawapan direct pada soalan-soalan yang direct? Kenapa perlu buat orang tertanya-tanya? Ternanti-nanti jawapan yang x pasti? Digantung tak bertali?

Susah sangat ke nak berterus terang and let it end there and then?

Kalau suka katakan suka. Kalau tak, lepaskan dia mencari haluan baru. Tak perlu menahan perjalanan mereka. Bagus sangatkah kita nak melayan orang sebegitu rupa? What if the situation changes? Bayangkan berada di tempat mereka. Agaknya, apa yang kita rasa? Suka? Gembira? Sedih? Kecewa?

Fikir2kanlah dan selamat beramal. ^___^

Wednesday, January 11, 2012


Tuhan...tolong tutup pintu hatiku buat insan yang sememangnya bukan takdirku.

Guwe udah capek. :'(

Sunday, January 8, 2012

He Got Me (+_+)

Been gotcha-ed today. By none other than Mr. Kaisan. Grrr... Geram betul. Dah la mamat nih mmg susah nak kenakan dia. Ini taiko aaa... If you cuba nak kenakan dia, end up you yang akan kena balik. Kaw-kaw punya. Here's how it happened(only some of the part that I can remember):

Mr.Chong: Hello, this is Mr.Chong from KIA Services. Can I speak to Miss Ruzanna?
Me: Saya.
Mr.Chong: This is regarding your 1st service(just did last week).Ini aaa... I tengah tengok your service record, apa service diorang buat? Ada tukar gearbox oil tak? Sebab I tengok aaa...dia tukar engine oil saja. Sepatutnya 1000km service kena tukar itu gearbox oil. Kalau tak boleh terbakar woo...
Me: Lemme check.
Mr.Chong: You ada simpan resit lagi ka?
Me: Ada2. Wait aa. (owh God, my bro took the car)
Mr.Chong: You ingat tak berapa amaun you bayar?
Me: Dalam RM230
Mr.Chong: Aiyaa...for 1000km service should be around 300++. Can you bring the car in now? Since this is our mistake, I will make the change FOC. Mana service center dekat dengan rumah you?
Me: The Chan Sow Lin one.
Mr.Chong: Aiyaa...itu center suda close for CNY. Can you bring it to Pandan Indah.
Me: I can't right now coz my brother took the car.
Mr.Chong: Owh, this is dangerous. You have to ask your brother to park the car immediately. I'm afraid the gearbox will get burn as the oil might drain already. You must bring the car to Pandan Indah now now. Faster faster. Ini, we already have one case. The customer sued us and we have to replace a new car for him. Banyak rugi woo...(pitied him)Just mention my name Mr.Chong to Mr.Kaisan.
Me: Huh? ---barely hear that name clearly
Mr.Chong: See Mr.Kaisan...
Me: SIOT!!!! chett...
Mr.Chong: HAHAHA... ni Kaisan la...

And that is the story of how he got me good... Dang!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

Selingan :

"A Thousand Years" - OST Breaking Dawn

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more


Sekarang tengah lunch time. Ni baru lepas shopping dekat 7-11. Takde mood nak keluar makan. Settle keje tadi pun dah pukul 1. 30pm. Kalau pergi makan, mau masuk opis lepas pukul 2. So, tapau jajan aje la...hehe...

Rasa macam dah lama x mengarang. Mengarang dalam erti kata sebenar mengarang. Kalau setakat post lirik lagu tu tak dikira. Hewhewhew...

Why now?

Sebab rasa rindu nak mengarang.

Why stopped before?

Malas nak menapis, apa yang boleh cerita, apa yang tak boleh. Takut orang tau. far banyak cerita hal2 peribadi je. Bukan tak nak cerita isu semasa macam isu UPSI yang tengah hangat sekarang. Tapi, dah banyak blog yang berdiskusi pasal isu tu. Cukup2 lah promo yang mereka dapat. Tak gitu? Tapi.....bila difikir2 balik, kalau semua pun nak sorok, baik tak payah buat blog nih kan? It defeat the purpose of creating one. Even tujuan asal buat blog nih pun sebagai diari sebab malas nak buat yang manual punya. Mana lagi nak dapat memori tu kalau tak dimeterikan dalam bentuk penulisan kan? Best apa kalau dibaca balik entry2 lama. =P

Ok, back to the main point.

Apa nak cerita ya? Hurm...dah masuk tahun baru. Umur pun dah makin meningkat. Status still sama - S.I.N.G.L.E. Apa masalahnya jadi single? Errrrr....xde masalah pun. Tapi, bila difikirkan umur yang makin meningkat, siapa yang tak terfikir untuk berpasangan kan? Me included. >__<

Tapi, nak buat macamana? Jodoh tak boleh dipaksa....walaupun diri sendiri pun agak memilih. Hahaha...perasan bagus. Ye la. Semua orang pun mesti nak jodoh yang terbaik untuk diri sendiri kan? So, tak salah la untuk memilih. Betul kan?

Ekcelinya, a couple months ago, I made a confession to a guy saying that I like him. Although me myself does not sure of how deep the feeling was at that time, I still went on with the confession. Giler kan? Bagai perigi mencari timba? Argh...pedulik kan. Zaman sekarang tak terpakai dah semua tu. Mana ada orang guna perigi dah sekarang. Kalau ada pun, dah tak banyak. Zaman sekarang, pulas je paip, keluar la air. Kalau sendiri tak usaha, mana nak dapat kan? hehe...

Apa jadi dengan that guy sekarang? Entahlah. Kitorang maintain kawan jek. Katanya "kita kawan je la dulu, kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana". Macam kata-kata orang matang kan? Tipu jek semua tu. Hahaha...realitinya tak matang langsung.Tapi, betul la apa yang dia cakap tu. Kalau nak paksa diri pun, kalau dah bukan ditakdirkan berdua, tak guna jugak kan?

OK la...sampai kat sini je. Lunch time dah tamat. Tata....till the next entry - tak tau bila.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Happy New Year 2012!!!!

Ok. Tahun ni dimulakan dengan sesi karok bersama rakan2 di Alamanda. Sesi karok paling lama. Karok melangkau tahun. ^_^

Keesokan harinya..........

Punyalah bosan. Cuti x keluar rumah. Tak tau nak buat apa. Bosan giler. Kan bagus kalau kerja. Ada jugak benda berfaedah nak buat. +_+

End up membuta. Owh....sempat baca novel sikit, selain makan dan tengok tv. Plan asal nak keluar shopping dengan adik. Tapi, x sampai hati lak nak tinggal mak kat rumah sorang2. Ayah keluar 'mencangkul'.

Dok pikir nak apply cuti 2 minggu hujung bulan ni. Nak jalan2. ^_^ Agak2 bos lulus tak?